Remember 2020 – Dec 3

“I realise there’s something incredibly honest about trees in winter, how they’re experts at letting things go.” ~ Jeffrey McDaniel

What did you let go of this year?

The illusion of control. The desperate attempts to make everything right and proper and good. I am letting go of the idea that there will be no heartache. That deep sadness will exist and there is no escape. And, also that there is no need to hold on to the sadness so deeply that you cannot feel joy and appreciate the glimmers of light when they pierce through. That the sadness need not diminish the light. There is no betrayal when I laugh. I can live with both. In fact, that is what I am called to do. But, damn it. It is hard.